Away from home

I was dreaming.
The wind, the cold,
The sound of crackers.
The stars, the songs,
The jingling bells of joy.

Walking in a merry chase,
With all my dearest people,
I saw all the scenes.
I saw all the scenes.

The Moon spread its joy on us,
We talked without stopping.
The wind was cold and soft,
We walked on a dusty road.

I was so happy that i was there.
The world meant so much to me.
I felt no grief,
I felt no pain.

....

When i woke up in the night,
I knew what i was dreaming about.
This was my first Christmas
Away from home.

Here Without You

A hundred days have made me older,
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.

But all the miles that separate
They disappear now
When I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

The miles just keep rolling,
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated,
But I hope that it gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me.

Everything I know and anywhere I go,
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls,
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby,
And I dream about you all the time.

I'm here without you baby,
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me.

(I'm all alone)

By "3 Doors Down"

I walk alone

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone.

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me'
Til then I walk alone...

From : "Boulevard Of Broken Dreams" by Greenday

Haunted by my own shadow

I was straight into the business.
But, my thoughts prevented me.
Just as always, i thought.
I could do nothing but not caring.

Before me lay a pool of dust,
And ash i remember.
The world seemed very unfamiliar.
I felt the wind blowing hard on me.

I was talking to my senses.
But, they seemed to be not caring.
The leaves were falling
Just like the pain inside my head.

Shadows began dancing around me
I felt a sudden fall.
Without touching anything,
I jumped into my shoes.

This place was never an illusion,
Nor a place to hide myself
From the countless thoughts
That follows me wherever i go.

Chilled Dreams

I woke up early in the morning,
Without being called up by my daily alarm.
I lay uneasily on my bed
My heart pounding with fear.

I felt like being consumed;
Emptiness started to gulp me.
I knew nothing but fear.
I knew something is near.

The windows of my bedroom
Opened up in random.
Chilled wind started to flow in.
I could taste it on my skin.

Vague images stared at me
My thoughts felt a new pain
They paid no attention to me
I wanted to run away from there.

My feelings ignored my presence.
My sadness filled up my veins.
Blood started to come out
Through the holes of my mind.

Without wasting any time,
I just came out of my mind.
I felt like a forgotten hero.
Someone called out my name.

Loneliness

I was walking alone;
But I was not dreaming.

I couldn't refresh my thoughts;
My thoughts made me restless.

The walls of my mind
Had become so transparent.

Through the nothingness of it
I could see them nearing.

I wished I could hear them,
Though I didn't like them.

I was wavering in the wind,
Rain started pouring on me.

Swollen became my fingers,
My hands started trembling.

I was trying to shout;
But my mouth was shut up.

I could see the end of the road.
I kept on walking.

I wished I could run;
But my feet were aching.

They came very near to me.
I started running.

My eyes became sleepy.
I knew the end was near.

I stopped and turned around.
I found no one and i was baffled.

My thoughts became so vague;
I stood there - sad and alone.

I love walking alone.

I'm not me

I try different names,
And different faces;
I don't trust you;
And it makes you angry.

I can go wherever i want to,
But i'm simply walking this way.
I don't believe in truth;
Because it seems very uncertain.

As i walk alone,
I can see them laughing.
I don't care for them
Because i'm not me.

And i really love my ways...

What i'm not

I'm not me.
Sometimes I'm not even my shadow.
But whenever i take my complement
I always get my real self.
That's why i keep on saying:
I'm not what i am.


My life, my dreams...

sreya [unni] - my niece

Kamal [kamlu], Biju and Rajeev[rajaav] - Always one step closer to me.

kamlu and rajaav

Nikhil [niks] - my heartthrob!

Jins - my bro, my idol

Biju, Tom[tomettan] and Vivek [pavu]

Biju, niks and pavu and Dinesh[dinu]

Bi - my soul mate, my companion