Loneliness

I was walking alone;
But I was not dreaming.

I couldn't refresh my thoughts;
My thoughts made me restless.

The walls of my mind
Had become so transparent.

Through the nothingness of it
I could see them nearing.

I wished I could hear them,
Though I didn't like them.

I was wavering in the wind,
Rain started pouring on me.

Swollen became my fingers,
My hands started trembling.

I was trying to shout;
But my mouth was shut up.

I could see the end of the road.
I kept on walking.

I wished I could run;
But my feet were aching.

They came very near to me.
I started running.

My eyes became sleepy.
I knew the end was near.

I stopped and turned around.
I found no one and i was baffled.

My thoughts became so vague;
I stood there - sad and alone.

I love walking alone.

I'm not me

I try different names,
And different faces;
I don't trust you;
And it makes you angry.

I can go wherever i want to,
But i'm simply walking this way.
I don't believe in truth;
Because it seems very uncertain.

As i walk alone,
I can see them laughing.
I don't care for them
Because i'm not me.

And i really love my ways...

What i'm not

I'm not me.
Sometimes I'm not even my shadow.
But whenever i take my complement
I always get my real self.
That's why i keep on saying:
I'm not what i am.


My life, my dreams...

sreya [unni] - my niece

Kamal [kamlu], Biju and Rajeev[rajaav] - Always one step closer to me.

kamlu and rajaav

Nikhil [niks] - my heartthrob!

Jins - my bro, my idol

Biju, Tom[tomettan] and Vivek [pavu]

Biju, niks and pavu and Dinesh[dinu]

Bi - my soul mate, my companion